I'm a neurodivergent, asocial person. Always have been. Though i still have had a few friends during my life. I managed to get by for a while with just the 2-3 people I talk to, but recently I've started to get really lonely. The way i've made friends in the past has been someone approaching me, not the other way around though. I don't know how to make friends/acquaintances with other people on my own. Me growing up with the internet probably played a role in my lack of real life social skills, i'm guessing
A constant revolving door of hermitude, trying to build a social circle, then finding out that for all of their "you can be yourself, you don't need to mask around me", turns out I do have to mask around them; and then I leave again.