I'm glad to hear others say talk therapy is useless. Online (especially reddit), people are always going on about how it's so great, everyone should get therapy, it solves all your problems, etc. It's been feeling like gaslighting, like "if therapy doesn't fix you then YOU aren't putting enough effort in." It feels no different than the bible telling people if they have enough faith they can move mountains.

I don't think I can get therapy elsewhere because it costs money, which I don't have. I don't even want therapy anyway, I've accepted my situation already. The therapist even said all she can do for me is get me to accept my situation and I'd already done that before I even met her. The one thing she can do is help me get my benefits reinstated but she just seems utterly opposed to that.

Anyway I've had several therapists before and none were any good at all. Years ago I was at university and I was walking home from the supermarket one evening when I was grabbed off the street and sexually assaulted by a gang of 4 men - total strangers. The university provided a counsellor/therapist who was also useless. One of the things she did was try to get me to empathise with my attackers, get me to imagine what problems they'd been going through that drove them to act the way they did towards me. I can't begin to tell you how infuriating it is, even now, to remember that. And the police were even worse. It's all crap.