I'm a neurodivergent, asocial person. Always have been. Though i still have had a few friends during my life. I managed to get by for a while with just the 2-3 people I talk to, but recently I've started to get really lonely. The way i've made friends in the past has been someone approaching me, not the other way around though. I don't know how to make friends/acquaintances with other people on my own. Me growing up with the internet probably played a role in my lack of real life social skills, i'm guessing
Aggression is no more or less an appropriate response than "babying" people about these things. I'd say I deserve some aggression for shirking my responsibilities in a way that endangered the lives of others, but even if I had done absolutely nothing wrong, I tend to treat unjust aggression like any other bit of misdelivered mail... Really, I feel like I generally have a particular attitude towards being or doing wrong, which unfortunately does not keep me from either, but which still ends up surprising many people who are used to having to drag people kicking and screaming towards the waters of truth and good, only for them to run off the second they're let go of.
Thank you for your advice.