More of the same this week. Didn't go to the gym. Worked out just a bit at home. Feeling all over the place in general, just waiting for the holidays to pass.

For 2024:

Ws:

-Finally found some consistency midway through the year up until more or less a week ago in so far as working out. Lost between 15-20lbs (6-9kg for all the metric system heads). Seeing some changes in my body as well, but still have a long way to go to hit my goal of being part of the swoletariate

-Went on my first date in a years. It went well and I have memories from it that I'll hold onto forever.

-Had a few moments where I finally opened up about my emotions to my mom. Its something that I'm still working on, but I'm glad I was able to to the extent that I had.

Ls:

-Still struggling with social anxiety. I was hoping to advance my relationship with my crush after my first date and I can't help but feel like I've stalled. I'm also just still struggling with staying in touch with my old friends and even the ones that I have haven't inspired confidence in my ability to maintain friendships because they end up ghosting me when I suggest we hang out.

-Kind of piggybacking on that, I feel like I try way too hard to make up for my deficiencies in socializing by being a people pleaser, especially in the work place. I'll often work solo shift to give my crew an opportunity to have a social life and that comes from a sincere place, but I also do it so much that looking back I feel like I'm just burning myself out way too much.

Resolutions/Goals for 2025:

-Take better care of myself. I really need to go to a doctor for a general checkup because its been forever. I've also really dragged my feet on trying to get therapy. Also considering getting diagnosed for ADHD/autism to get a clearer picture of what I can do to better live with some of the things I feel.

-Continue to lock in at the gym and lose just a bit more weight.

-Grow my relationships and be consistent with it as well.