I'm not seeking out a diagnosis or anything like that. But I don't know how I come off. I don't know if I'm trying to be too funny or dramatic. I don't know if I'm being condescending or rude.

I don't know if I'm making good points or if I'm inconsistent with my reasoning.

Sometimes I just want someone to tell me what I'm like because I can't tell and I don't want to be shitty to people. Is that just anxiety? Or is this me being neurodiverse too?

I'm convinced all the time that I'm being shitty to people or a bully.

People familiar with me here, could you tell me a little bit what I'm like or what vibe I'm giving off? Is my writing disjointed or difficult to read?

What do you do when you feel this way?

  • Yurt_Owl
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    8 months ago

    Likely overthinking. I used to feel like this a lot its almost always anxiety. Where that anxiety stems from I can't say for you but for me its cos I'm autistic and always felt odd and out of place through my life and never knew why.

    • the_itsb [she/her, comrade/them]
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      8 months ago

      Big, giant same.

      OP, I have said something very much like this post repeatedly over the years, often with great anguish because my lack of understanding has caused a painful social problem.

      I was diagnosed with ADHD almost a year ago, and then I figured out I was autistic over this past summer.

      • Magician [he/him, they/them]
        hexagon
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        8 months ago

        painful social problem

        That's it, that's the wording exactly. I feel like I'm doing something wrong and nobody will tell me what it is because it should be obvious.

        I was diagnosed with ADHD earlier this year, and the only reason I have sought a formal diagnosis for autism is because the US is an awful place.

        I'm comforted to know I'm not the only one who feels this way, and I'm thinking I'll start trying to meet other ND people in my community.

        Thank you!

    • Magician [he/him, they/them]
      hexagon
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      8 months ago

      Thank you for the kind words. I'm prone to overthinking and sometimes feels like certain rules are obvious while others are straight up backwards.

      I feel odd and out of place a lot, but I'm feeling better and my perception of things.

  • blight [any]
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    8 months ago

    I can't keep track of usernames, but I think this post is enough on its own to merit further investigation

    • Magician [he/him, they/them]
      hexagon
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      8 months ago

      Thank you so much. Overthinking is something I'm working on and sometimes I think I need to touch base in communities like this one to make sure.

      I see you around as another Black person here, and I appreciate the input you provide in conversations on this site as I'm trying to navigate my Blackness and leftist beliefs.

      • Othello [comrade/them, love/loves]
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        8 months ago

        thank you! its nice to be appreciated! and i appreciate you too, the more black comrades being themselves on here makes it easier to be myself. if you wanna chat on discord or vent or something you are free to dm me for my discord tag, i talk to some comrades on there.if not noooooo worries.

  • magi [she/her, they/them]
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    8 months ago

    I get this a lot, I can't tell when I'm happy at all for instance. I have to ask my partner constantly if I'm coming across correctly too. I also have problems in tone too like I can't tell sometimes how I sound or appear. It can be difficult. I don't know you that well but I think your writing is clear and precise, not rude which is a plus to me c: