The powerful crave control. He will never have that again, only the knowledge that he is broken and his mind will not come into focus. He is aware this is because of his sins, evil, and murder. He blames himself every day and pleads to remember his wife's face. He will never remember her face. He is forced to re-experience the suffering he caused to others in life.

This is making me want to stop by there on my way home. I haven't tasted his agony in a hot minute.