Was I just stupid kid in the Midwest wrapped up in propaganda and a family history? How could I not fucking see what really was going on and what we do to the people of the countries we go to? Everything I wanted to be as a kid was based on fucking lies and the profits of the military industrial complex. What the fuck was the point of my deployments if not to oppress others? How can people fucking support these wars and invasions? In the name of protecting our freedoms while stripping away others? I fucking hate myself and wish I could take it away, but without it I wouldn’t be a communist and I wouldn’t have experience colonialism and imperialism first hand on the side of the oppressors. Fucking fuck.
They were in my private high school when I was in my senior year and we lost the time of one of our classes to go hear their propaganda and take pamphlets home. Safe to say I skipped class that day, but one of my friends went to the little event and he told me he was considering signing up. I don't really remember if I told him it was a horrible idea, I wasn't really aware of the horrors of US imperialism then, but I definitely remember telling him to think twice about it. I have no clue if he ended up enlisting, his dad was a cop so I have a feeling he'd get some encouragement from his parents.