Literally nobody here that could be considered part of the "confident" group of leftists who feel like they understand enough to speak and teach got to where they are in just a little bit of time. Everyone, except those born into leftist families, has had to unlearn shit.
It will take you years to fully divert yourself from these thoughts, many of them won't even be things you believe but things that you have habitually learned to go to. You need to unlearn that. That's going to take a long time.
If you want to make this go faster? Go do something. Do something to do with race. Do something to do with groups you now want to help, do something with communities that you yourself previously under these fascist beliefs had horrible thoughts and feelings about.
Connect emotionally with real human beings. Care about them. Teach yourself that they're all your brothers and sisters, that we're all ultimately the same wherever we are in the world. You can cut down racial theory by better connecting yourself internationally, to international politics, realising that mankind is the same everywhere, you can replace these racial thoughts with thoughts about the brotherhood of man.
Otherwise? Just do what every other leftist online does. Absorb it all passively and occasionally force yourself through a book, when you can. If you can get a book reading routine going that will go better, but really a shit load of leftists aren't reading anything at all, they are learning online from other leftists.
Do what works for you, but always keep learning. Don't ever feel like you're at the end of the political journey, it never stops.
It is a process of years, not weeks.
Literally nobody here that could be considered part of the "confident" group of leftists who feel like they understand enough to speak and teach got to where they are in just a little bit of time. Everyone, except those born into leftist families, has had to unlearn shit.
It will take you years to fully divert yourself from these thoughts, many of them won't even be things you believe but things that you have habitually learned to go to. You need to unlearn that. That's going to take a long time.
If you want to make this go faster? Go do something. Do something to do with race. Do something to do with groups you now want to help, do something with communities that you yourself previously under these fascist beliefs had horrible thoughts and feelings about.
Connect emotionally with real human beings. Care about them. Teach yourself that they're all your brothers and sisters, that we're all ultimately the same wherever we are in the world. You can cut down racial theory by better connecting yourself internationally, to international politics, realising that mankind is the same everywhere, you can replace these racial thoughts with thoughts about the brotherhood of man.
Otherwise? Just do what every other leftist online does. Absorb it all passively and occasionally force yourself through a book, when you can. If you can get a book reading routine going that will go better, but really a shit load of leftists aren't reading anything at all, they are learning online from other leftists.
Do what works for you, but always keep learning. Don't ever feel like you're at the end of the political journey, it never stops.