CW: I will discuss body dismorphia, or the (seeming) lack thereof I feel when thinking what it would be like to have been assigned the wrong gender. Also I describe sexual roles and thinking about having different anatomy.
Ok, so I've previously read Trans Liberation by Leslie Feinberg and I care about gender insofar as it takes to ensure all gender nonconforming people get healthcare, feel safe in public life, etc. I also will/have changed my language as much as it takes to make my trans comrades feel comfortable. With that out of the way:
I am a cis male, and I guess I am mostly okay with the body I've been given. I prefer to be called him, but I would only be a little annoyed if someone used she/her or they/them to describe me. If I try to imagine my body with a vagina and developing breasts in puberty with my current state of mind, I don't feel very much discomfort. I don't feel particularly attached to the role of penetrating another partner as a gay guy who enjoys bottoming more than topping. If I was forced to wear dresses to church growing up, I don't imagine I would be very distressed.
I do value the relative ease of building muscle that comes with having a male hormonal profile, and I guess dealing with having a female hormonal profile could be alarming, but mostly because it's not what I'm used to. But before puberty, I also wasn't used to having a bunch of testosterone.
On some level, I understand that it can be traumatic to be the target of violence and hate speech, or to be denied medical care. I'm speaking from a position of relative privilege.
Does this mean I'm possibly non-binary? Or something else? I feel content to be assumed as male, but I don't feel that strongly about it. And the title question again, does anybody else who is cisgender or otherwise just not have strong feelings about their own gender?
I'm cis and het as far as I know, but tbh I've really never felt strongly about my gender and if I was nonbinary or something I don't think I'd change my presentation at all, as I barely "present" in the first place. Is wearing hoodies and sweatpants when I'm not working masculine? I feel like it's just lazy.
Honestly, I think that the ability to "not present" is a cis male experience. How would you feel if there was intense pressure on you to wear makeup and clothes that look good all the time. If every time you put on your hoody, people asked you if you were sick.
I think it's really more a consequence of extreme social isolation and severe difficulties interacting with people. There's a bunch of pressure on me to do "manly" things that I also don't do, like participate in or watch sports, or prioritize sexual conquest over honesty or emotional authenticity.