First of all, a very special All The Times I’ve Died thanks to y’all who sent me money. May Allah bless you mashallah.

I’m making this post because I want to be open about something:

I have issues with substance abuse. I did not spend a single dollar of what was sent to me on dope nor dope accessories (i.e. paraphernalia). I am not one of “those” people and tbfbbq I don’t need to scam people online for dope.

In the future, if I request any more chapobux, I will post receipts of all the things I purchase, and if I get cash back or whatever I’ll have a good excuse for it, whether you fuckers want it or not, because I’ve been accused of scamming in the past (last year I was chased out of a couple FB groups I depended on for kickdowns), and it is so fucking infuriating being accused of something, and then being called a liar when I deny it, no matter how much I scream and cry. It’s pretty fucked up when someone who’s supposed to be your comrade or your ally tells you that they know you’re lying because you’re a drug addict and drug addicts lie.

And fwiw I’m about to call this detox center and actually try to fucking quit dope.

That’s another thing: it will help a lot to have people to talk to, people who support me and hold me accountable and shit. It’s fucking hard doing this alone.

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