First of all, a very special All The Times I’ve Died thanks to y’all who sent me money. May Allah bless you mashallah.
I’m making this post because I want to be open about something:
I have issues with substance abuse. I did not spend a single dollar of what was sent to me on dope nor dope accessories (i.e. paraphernalia). I am not one of “those” people and tbfbbq I don’t need to scam people online for dope.
In the future, if I request any more chapobux, I will post receipts of all the things I purchase, and if I get cash back or whatever I’ll have a good excuse for it, whether you fuckers want it or not, because I’ve been accused of scamming in the past (last year I was chased out of a couple FB groups I depended on for kickdowns), and it is so fucking infuriating being accused of something, and then being called a liar when I deny it, no matter how much I scream and cry. It’s pretty fucked up when someone who’s supposed to be your comrade or your ally tells you that they know you’re lying because you’re a drug addict and drug addicts lie.
And fwiw I’m about to call this detox center and actually try to fucking quit dope.
That’s another thing: it will help a lot to have people to talk to, people who support me and hold me accountable and shit. It’s fucking hard doing this alone.
Thank you for watching my Youtube video essay. Don’t forget to like and subscribe.
Good luck with the detox and recovery! Went in for alcohol rehab myself about 7 weeks ago, and staying clean. If you ever need an ear, happy to chat!
look we dont give money with forms to fill out and promises that it will be spent in a certain way
we arent liberals
Don't worry about posting receipts, man. We're not the kind of people to demand means testing. And if someone does demand them, I'll get on their ass
I can imagine how hard that is, I'm sorry you've been wrongly accused like that.
Good luck with detox comrade, stay strong and keep at it
If I ever give you money, spend it on whatever the fuck you want
Same goes for anybody else in the future or past. I don't care what you spend your money as long as it doesn't hurt others. If you need money you need money. If you need drugs because you're withdrawing or you need to escape from this bullshit called reality, you need drugs. Absolutely no judgements here
I hope your detox goes well ❤️🩹
And congratulations on taking the first steps! Actually trying and putting forth an effort to heal is always the hardest part
No joke I have wanted to do a Youtube channel or something for ages. idk what I’d do tho.
if you ever need to talk, feel free to DM me on hexbear or matrix. Quitting is hard, but you can do it!
