I'm just kind of numb tbh. The house is a disaster. There's piss everywhere from mom from when she was dying. I have no groceries either. My dad is pretty happy all things considered because now I'm totally in his hands. He wants me to get a job asap. We haven't even cremated mom yet. She was so sick and bad that an open casket funeral was out of the question. None of my family is picking up their phones either.

I have my meds and smokes, that's about it right now. Not really too sure where to start with anything.