I'm totally devistated. I just got home today.

  • thethirdgracchi [he/him, they/them]
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    3 years ago

    Fucking hell. My condolences comrade, sounds like pretty much the worst homecoming possible. Probably doesn't even feel real yet, but when it does know that you gotta grieve. We're here for you if you need anything. :ancom-heart:

  • Atavist [none/use name]
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    3 years ago

    Shit man I remember seeing a comment from you having some difficulty with your mom. I had just lost mine and wanted to tell you to not let it get to you and to cherish your moments. But I was too grief stricken then to even bother. Now I regret not telling you. I can atleast tell you this. It does get easier but I still break down from time to time.

  • MiraculousMM [he/him, any]M
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    3 years ago

    I'm so sorry for your loss. From your posts in the past, I know your mom meant the world to you. It's a small comfort that she's no longer suffering, but that doesn't make loss hurt any less.

    Are you open to mutual aid via venmo or another avenue? Your comrades here would be more than happy to assist you, myself included :soviet-heart:

    • SorosFootSoldier [he/him, they/them]
      hexagon
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      3 years ago

      Mom was my best friend. I know she doesn't have to worry about money or me anymore but it's all still so surreal. I don't have a smart phone so the best option to get me direct cash would probably be a western union or transfer to my dad's bank or something.

      • MiraculousMM [he/him, any]M
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        3 years ago

        Absolutely, take the time you need to grieve and work through things. If you need help from your comrades, just let us know how to assist.

  • layla
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    3 years ago

    Hooooly shit. I'm so so so sorry to hear that. How you holding up? Fucking hell. :sadness-abysmal:

    • SorosFootSoldier [he/him, they/them]
      hexagon
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      3 years ago

      I'm just kind of numb tbh. The house is a disaster. There's piss everywhere from mom from when she was dying. I have no groceries either. My dad is pretty happy all things considered because now I'm totally in his hands. He wants me to get a job asap. We haven't even cremated mom yet. She was so sick and bad that an open casket funeral was out of the question. None of my family is picking up their phones either.

      I have my meds and smokes, that's about it right now. Not really too sure where to start with anything.

      • layla
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        3 years ago

        Fuck dude, I don't know what to say. I guess if you need help with money stuff ask c/mutual_aid, people here will for sure help out.

        I mean, take as much time as you need but like... get groceries if you can, don't forget to eat n shit.

  • QuillQuote [they/them]
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    3 years ago

    Love you comrade. Here offering what solidarity and support I can, I wish it amounted to much but I’m rooting for you

  • infuziSporg [e/em/eir]
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    3 years ago

    Aaaaaah! Terrible news, my heart shudders for you and your family.

    More than once, it came across how she was your anchor. No doubt, she was a big source of your love. You are worthy and capable in your own right, and I know it will fulfill your late mom's desires for you to proceed to live a life that is interesting and rewarding.

    I'd be happy to talk anytime if you want.