I am so goddamn tired of how hard it is to find a decent paying job. I guess that’s what I get for getting a degree in something non technical but still the pressure of my constant failure to find gainful employment is really stressing me out and putting so much strain on my partner and I just wish it wasn’t so difficult. I want to work and I feel like I have so much to offer, but it’s difficult to find something in an office with insurance when all you have on your resume is various jobs doing manual labor that you can hardly keep for more than a year. Sometimes I just feel marked. Like they take one look at my resume and they just know I’m not cut out for that, I would need a little extra help and that’s too costly. They don’t want to be paying for you to learn skills and get better they want to pay for you to create value that they can extract the surplus from. And if you don’t generate as much surplus as quickly as the next person they just don’t want you and they have gotten very good at spotting us. I’m just so worn down.