My executive functioning is at an all time low local minima and it is fucking my life up once again. I'm starting to see the degree to which ADHD has set me back in life and I hate it.

I have so many things that I know I need to do, and so many more things that I want to do, but I just cannot will myself to do any of it. Go to the gym, again when I know I'll enjoy it? Meh. Go get an eye exam so I can finally get new glasses and contacts? Fuuuuck. The dentist? Hahahaha. Shit, I'm working at a ski resort so I can have a free pass, but I can't even get myself up to the hill to have fun.

I really want to not be like this

Occasionally on social media I see an exchange that goes something like this:

A: "I'm autistic, and I have a lot of difficulty with <social skill>."

B: "Well, I/someone I know is autistic, and I/they don't have any trouble with <social skill>, so you must just be a shitty person."

Which annoys me. That's it, that's the vent.

I realize this is a venting thread but I don't want to make a whole post. I've been seeing a take recently that we should try to move beyond pathologizing autism and work to recognize it as an identity. I was curious what you all think about that.

For context, I've essentially spent the last year coming to identify as autistic and someone that just got labeled as gifted because I did really well at school, but I don't have any kind of diagnosis, and I'm not sure I want to pursue one. But then, I feel somewhat uncomfortable embracing the identity because I feel like I could be wrong and taking up space from someone that is "actually" autistic. I also know that self-identification is generally accepted in the autism community, but I was raised with very pathologized views of neurodivergence and essentially anything to do with mental health. Would really just live thoughts from comrades etc I guess, it's taken me a long time to feel comfortable enough to even post something like this. :meow-hug: y'all, hexbear is easily my favorite place on the interwebs.

Is therapy helpful if most of your problems are due to neurology rather than just "bad habits" or "lack of discipline" or "negative attitude"? I've seen a few different therapists now and I can't say I've gotten much out of it.

If therapy worked for you, how did you approach it and what did it help with?

I'm currently trying to recover from a very intense bout of autistic burnout from an overloaded college semester and I'm really struggling. It was such a difficult semester and even though I did well grade-wise, it literally broke me to keep up (it really hammered in how disabled I am when it comes to functioning in these settings). I feel like an empty shell of who I used to be before attending classes again. Even now after it's all over, I haven't been able to get back into doing things that make me truly happy. I want to create art and enjoy things again but I feel so tired, mindless, and numb all the time. This is also impacting my friendships, I feel so cut off from those I care about cause I can't keep up with messaging regularly anymore. I know only rest will help but I'm just frustrated and want to feel normal again yanno? I'm also really anxious about when the new semester starts in the next few weeks. I'll at least be significantly reducing my course load this time around but I just. know I need more time to recover and I'm plagued by the idea that I'm running out of time so it's very hard for me to focus on recovery at all.

Any tips on coping with/managing autistic burnout? especially within a limited timeframe? I'm just so tired of feeling like this, any encouragement would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for creating a space for me to vent about this. >_<

(also I'm new to hexbear and this space so I apologize if I'm not formatting this comment correctly, please let me know if I should've added a CW or anything!)

I sometimes wonder if I have undiagnosed autism, or it's just that my depression and mood swings impair my ability to interact with other people a lot, because man I have no idea how to really deal with people

I am so goddamn tired of how hard it is to find a decent paying job. I guess that’s what I get for getting a degree in something non technical but still the pressure of my constant failure to find gainful employment is really stressing me out and putting so much strain on my partner and I just wish it wasn’t so difficult. I want to work and I feel like I have so much to offer, but it’s difficult to find something in an office with insurance when all you have on your resume is various jobs doing manual labor that you can hardly keep for more than a year. Sometimes I just feel marked. Like they take one look at my resume and they just know I’m not cut out for that, I would need a little extra help and that’s too costly. They don’t want to be paying for you to learn skills and get better they want to pay for you to create value that they can extract the surplus from. And if you don’t generate as much surplus as quickly as the next person they just don’t want you and they have gotten very good at spotting us. I’m just so worn down.

:debatebro-l: emotional impulse control associated with my adhd really has me acting like a debate bro/asshole whenever I see a comment/position that is so stupid I get annoyed.

like I hate nothing more than redditors and I can’t stop myself from acting like one here and there.

another aspect is just getting tilted way too easily if I’m even a little tired or hungry :debatebro-r:

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