Yeah, I guess I’m just disappointed at how vehemently family members I used to look up to for teaching me to seek out justice and be a good, empathetic person, now turn on me now that I am somewhat well read and informed on large scale systemic injustices and analyses of the roots of injustice, now they scream at me for being too emotional and caring too much about it. It has shown me just how limited the liberal mindset is, how tragically, despite being a family of third world immigrants, my family has completely bought into American exceptionalism and imperialism and western chauvinist propaganda.

It makes me wonder what did they really mean about “caring about injustice”? Did they mean for the sake of aesthetics, performatively recognizing that injustice exists? What they get mad at me for is my understanding (built through study of socialist theory) of the roots of these injustices.

And apparently I care too much, and yes I did start crying in indignation talking about how barbaric it is that companies are, as expected, choosing profits over vaccinating the periphery, and our government actively supports that. They’re mad at me for not believing in electoralism and incremental change. I just asked WHO CAN I FUCKING VOTE FOR TO GET PEOPLE IN OUR MOTHER COUNTRY THE FUCKING VACCINE FORMULAS? They have no answer but getting mad at me for being a “conspiracy theorist” because I point out that our government is run by bourgeois interests. God it’s just disappointing that family members I looked up to, our family my parents generation was dirt poor in a third world Asian country, for their sense of justice turned out to be brainwashed democratic party liberals, and my mom said I was as bad as a Trump supporter (to liberals that is the ultimate trashing of your politics) and my mom thinks I’m brainwashed by Chinese propaganda and victim to MISINFORMATION holy fuck