Thank you.

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Ah yeah that perspective makes a lot of sense. It is also well demonstrated by something my mom frequently says, that u should not "talk bad things" about corporation because that is ungrateful because they enabled our middle class lives.

As Marxists we know this is obviously some misplaced gratitude and really some hot air false consciousness, but I think it is indicative of the roots of their liberal mindsets; perhaps the struggles and hardships they lived through before immigrating to 🍔 were enough to pacify them into the white liberal PMC framework. Ironically it is me, their child who grew up in relative comfort and was spared from a fraction of their suffering in poverty, that is interested in working class politics. Am I just a hypocrite to be this way? I have been sheltered and protected by my parents luck to get professional tech jobs in 🍔, and despite that I am deeply disturbed by injustice I perceive and identify via the analytical tools of socialist theory.

Yeah, I guess I’m just disappointed at how vehemently family members I used to look up to for teaching me to seek out justice and be a good, empathetic person, now turn on me now that I am somewhat well read and informed on large scale systemic injustices and analyses of the roots of injustice, now they scream at me for being too emotional and caring too much about it. It has shown me just how limited the liberal mindset is, how tragically, despite being a family of third world immigrants, my family has completely bought into American exceptionalism and imperialism and western chauvinist propaganda.

It makes me wonder what did they really mean about “caring about injustice”? Did they mean for the sake of aesthetics, performatively recognizing that injustice exists? What they get mad at me for is my understanding (built through study of socialist theory) of the roots of these injustices.

And apparently I care too much, and yes I did start crying in indignation talking about how barbaric it is that companies are, as expected, choosing profits over vaccinating the periphery, and our government actively supports that. They’re mad at me for not believing in electoralism and incremental change. I just asked WHO CAN I FUCKING VOTE FOR TO GET PEOPLE IN OUR MOTHER COUNTRY THE FUCKING VACCINE FORMULAS? They have no answer but getting mad at me for being a “conspiracy theorist” because I point out that our government is run by bourgeois interests. God it’s just disappointing that family members I looked up to, our family my parents generation was dirt poor in a third world Asian country, for their sense of justice turned out to be brainwashed democratic party liberals, and my mom said I was as bad as a Trump supporter (to liberals that is the ultimate trashing of your politics) and my mom thinks I’m brainwashed by Chinese propaganda and victim to MISINFORMATION holy fuck

Yeah, I guess I’m just disappointed at how vehemently family members I used to look up to for teaching me to seek out justice and be a good, empathetic person, now turn on me now that I am somewhat well read and informed on large scale systemic injustices and analyses of the roots of injustice, now they scream at me for being too emotional and caring too much about it. It has shown me just how limited the liberal mindset is, how tragically, despite being a family of third world immigrants, my family has completely bought into American exceptionalism and imperialism and western chauvinist propaganda.

It makes me wonder what did they really mean about “caring about injustice”? Did they mean for the sake of aesthetics, performatively recognizing that injustice exists? What they get mad at me for is my understanding (built through study of socialist theory) of the roots of these injustices.

And apparently I care too much, and yes I did start crying in indignation talking about how barbaric it is that companies are, as expected, choosing profits over vaccinating the periphery, and our government actively supports that. They’re mad at me for not believing in electoralism and incremental change. I just asked WHO CAN I FUCKING VOTE FOR TO GET PEOPLE IN OUR MOTHER COUNTRY THE FUCKING VACCINE FORMULAS? They have no answer but getting mad at me for being a “conspiracy theorist” because I point out that our government is run by bourgeois interests. God it’s just disappointing that family members I looked up to, our family my parents generation was dirt poor in a third world Asian country, for their sense of justice turned out to be brainwashed democratic party liberals, and my mom said I was as bad as a Trump supporter (to liberals that is the ultimate trashing of your politics) and my mom thinks I’m brainwashed by Chinese propaganda and victim to MISINFORMATION holy fuck

Yeah, I guess I'm just disappointed at how vehemently family members I used to look up to for teaching me to seek out justice and be a good, empathetic person, now turn on me now that I am somewhat well read and informed on large scale systemic injustices and analyses of the roots of injustice, now they scream at me for being too emotional and caring too much about it. It has shown me just how limited the liberal mindset is, how tragically, despite being a family of third world immigrants, my family has completely bought into American exceptionalism and imperialism and western chauvinist propaganda.

It makes me wonder what did they really mean about "caring about injustice"? Did they mean for the sake of aesthetics, performatively recognizing that injustice exists? What they get mad at me for is my understanding (built through study of socialist theory) of the roots of these injustices.

And apparently I care too much, and yes I did start crying in indignation talking about how barbaric it is that companies are, as expected, choosing profits over vaccinating the periphery, and our government actively supports that. They're mad at me for not believing in electoralism and incremental change. I just asked WHO CAN I FUCKING VOTE FOR TO GET PEOPLE IN OUR MOTHER COUNTRY THE FUCKING VACCINE FORMULAS? They have no answer but getting mad at me for being a "conspiracy theorist" because I point out that our government is run by bourgeois interests. God it's just disappointing that family members I looked up to for their sense of justice turned out to be brainwashed democratic party liberals, and my mom said I was as bad as a Trump supporter (to liberals that is the ultimate trashing of your politics) and my mom thinks I'm brainwashed by Chinese propaganda and victim to MISINFORMATION holy fuck

Yes, I can understand it as a survival instinct of just drowning out your senses to stay sane and grind, but yeah, it's just running away from reality and picking up some nihilist bullshit

Ah thank you so much that really helps me. I will dwell on it more.

Looking forward to your response later then :meow-hug: take care until then

Thank you so much for writing that out. One thing:

I think often of the words of Che Guevara about hating injustice wherever it occurs. Spread awareness. Bully your friends into examining their beliefs. A debate over ideology doesn’t win comrades. Showing them the receipts of capitalist exploitation again and again and again, and fighting to make a better world possible wins comrades.

I do tremble at injustice, sometimes to the point where I am temporality just consumed by indignation at the sheer injustice of imperialist capitalism. My mom said that it's childish or whatever to get mad about this because there's nothing I can do. I'm just kind of stunned at how people can compartmentalize their life like that, it's so hard for me to just somehow ignore that context and awareness; ignorance really is bliss. The injustice makes me sad and angry. It really triggers my empathetic feelings and I'm written of as sick and psychological because I am mentally disturbed by this. Why is it seen as my immaturity for me being angered by this? Are they right? Is it really immature to get angry at these systemic injustices because I don't really have any power to fix it? I suppose it's possible they're right from a pragmatic standpoint but we are empathetic, emotional beings, and my commitment to Marxism is because I want to understand the world.

Thank you :avoheart: :sadness-abysmal: :penguin-love: :meow-hug: