When mine gets really bad, it’ll feel like a slow buildup of tension that is quickly released without my control. Almost like an attack. In the past, it’s actually felt like a shock as well.
But it sounds like NT people I’ve talked with don’t see it like that 🤔 and frankly neither does the internet at large 🥴
I feel like I have learned helplessness preventing me from having normal panic now from 5 million undone imaginary homework assignments and texts i didn't answer and fake cold war anxiety from being a neoliberal child so now I just shut down when I'm truly afraid. I don't try to concoct a wild escape plan unless I can truly make a break for it like, hearing sirens and jumping over a fence, real escape. But concocting wild lies and explanations isn't something I can do off the cuff now sadly.