Okay, this might sound like a first-world problem, but I suffer from schizophrenia, so please hear me out. I work in an office setting with just two people. The job I currently have is the most laid-back gig I've ever had, as I essentially work in a support role for the other person who works full-time. I work only four days a week and have a flexible, relaxed schedule.

Truth be told, my coworker is also my mentor, and I am being prepared to eventually run the operation on my own. If I worked hard and dedicated myself, I might come close to achieving the greatness of my mentor. Seriously, he is an absolute beast in his field. The thing is, I just don't want to do it. Plus, I'm not even sure I could do it even if I wanted to.

The current state of affairs is perfect, and I love it. I just don't 'want' more. Yet I know it can't last forever like this.

If I followed in the footsteps of my mentor, I could make serious money - like a substantial amount. I doubt I could ever make that money anywhere else through legal means. (I wouldnt be a millionaire dont worry hexbear) However, I'm scared of the time and mental commitment required. I'm a lazy slob, not a super elite salaryman. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I should just get my shit together and be a real MAN™, make that money. I want kids one day and a family; this would secure that dream. On the other hand, I'm kinda chill being alone, and having kids could remain a dream?

Currently, I work to live. Could I envision a scenario where I live to work, if it meant substantial benefits despite the sacrifice?

Im aware that even being my position is a privilege (regardless of my minority background)

It might all seem childish, I know, but I have been living in a lull. Only in the last 10 months or so have I been waking up; that's why I'm making this post.

Any input is welcome.

  • Dagwood222@lemm.ee
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    9 months ago

    True story. A guy graduated college and decided to go to Africa to do good. He spent 18 months there and then flew home for the holidays. He reconnected with his college buddies and learned about the money they were making. They told him with his grades and connections he could start at $100,000/year. He sat down and ran the numbers and told his charity bosses he was quitting. He now works full time and supports two volunteer positions in Africa full time.

  • pudcollar [he/him]
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    9 months ago

    A good job is hard to find. Especially now. I think it's not about what you should do, just do what interests you. There's no point in making a move if your heart's not in it. Let your mind go where it will, you'll meet who you do and what will be will be.