Anybody else rarely feel strong emotions and feel the need to seem more emotional

Basically I don't experience yippie yay joys but I don't get sad or angry a lot either. I have things I like and dislike but I don't get internal reactions like "i hate this >:(" or "omg I love this sm :3" a lot, unless it's something integrated into me like really non-enjoyable thing. I sometimes feel silly and whimsy moods but I wouldn't feel like jumping in the air with my feet touching like a cartoon character, I'm just neutral idk

But somehow my facial expressions/tone are interpreted as hostile but I just think of myself having a long face and a monotone voice. I mean I do get annoyed but only if ppl insist that what they project onto me actually applies. I sometimes feel like I have to mask that aspect and say stupid catchphrases/be silly to be more palatable and it's turned into feeling the need to use emoticons or "unserious" language a lot so ppl don't get the wrong idea. It also plays into how ppl will laugh at me if I'm serious so I might as well just play the clown

Idk let me know what you think/experience down below

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