It sucks enough that I've lost my friend, it sucks even more that I still have to work with him, and it sucks even more that even Hextube doesn't seem to be a place to turn anymore. It sucks the most that I can't even feel my own emotions because of excessive SSRIs.
i tried to post this to c/mentalhealth and it blocked me for some reason
Sorry to hear this comrade. I don't know what to say, so maybe sharing a sentiment will help in some way -
I lost a number of friends in 2023 for, well, lots of reasons. Most bridges seem to irreparably burned. While I dunno why the MH comm stopped you from posting, im glad youre talking about it. For me, when im not doing the best, I shut down and wall myself off. So it's encouraging to see you being candid.
Sending all the love in the world
I'm doing better now after a little bacardio
i ended up falling for my friend but he already has a partner, then we got too close, then he (probably rightfully) cut me off
now i have to handle being so alone (never been in a relationship) and i also have to handle seeing him feet away from me in the break room every day while we ignore each other
fucking hell i'm 28 now jesus christ