Can't even fucking talk to any of my various therapists about this shit. No I can't just "not think about stuff I can't control". I'm autistic, have severe general anxiety, and pretty bad ADHD that medication only marginally helps. I've already improved immensely and stopped worrying about most things.
Except this one.
I organize too don't tell me to do that
Also texts about revolutionary optimism didn't help either. All that shit was a hundred years ago in a completely different state of world
Yea I've tried that the last 2 years, all that gave me was a complete inability to relate with most communists because of my nihilistic lifestyle and a drug addiction
Who wants to relate with communists?