Can't even fucking talk to any of my various therapists about this shit. No I can't just "not think about stuff I can't control". I'm autistic, have severe general anxiety, and pretty bad ADHD that medication only marginally helps. I've already improved immensely and stopped worrying about most things.
Except this one.
I organize too don't tell me to do that
Also texts about revolutionary optimism didn't help either. All that shit was a hundred years ago in a completely different state of world
A Paradise Built In Hell by Rebecca Solnit. I consider it a good counterbalance to The Shock Doctrine by Naomi Klein. She analyzes disasters, the government response, people on the ground, and comes to a revolutionary conclusion: The worse it gets, the better we become (with caveats, which she explores too). I came away taking communal disaster preparation/organizing more seriously, and using it as a Trojan to introduce Leftist ideas in regular people. Both books complement each other; Klein dissects the Elite ideology and history with violent shock tactics, and Solnit analyzes the community response as well as the Elite Panic over the community response.