Can't even fucking talk to any of my various therapists about this shit. No I can't just "not think about stuff I can't control". I'm autistic, have severe general anxiety, and pretty bad ADHD that medication only marginally helps. I've already improved immensely and stopped worrying about most things.
Except this one.
I organize too don't tell me to do that
Also texts about revolutionary optimism didn't help either. All that shit was a hundred years ago in a completely different state of world
I blame shitty US propaganda. Straight up I never would've been radicalized if they never did any propaganda but the moment I started paying attention to the news, I started to do research on the ClA because that's where so many sources ended up pointing to