hey, i'm hmmm.
I've been lurking for maybe a year now. I'm currently figuring out my queerness (hexbear helped me a lot already). I like ttrpgs and video games. I feel kind of lost atm, so I thought I post.

  • hmmm [any, they/them]
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    10 months ago
    CW: addiction

    I'm realizing more and more how much alcohol addiction has hindered my own self-development. But also, idk how to write this, I still feel like I'm just a person who is keen to getting addicted to stuff. Although I realize some behavior is bad for me, my brain will just rationalize it somehow.

    (not sure if the topic for the CW is ok, sorry if it's not)

    Also I recently left a leftist org because it felt like all they did was electorialism which I think was partly due to the orgs lack of discussion regarding the org's positions. I think, if there's no clear position, being there and discussing strategy or whatever is just tedious, because every member has a different opinion on what the individual proclaimed values of the org actually mean. If the org somehow stated 'btw, we only do electorialism', I'd at least have saved my time.

    thx for reading my venting :)