a friend of mine killed himself 17 years ago or so, it was decently planned and obviously meant as a fuck you considering where he did it. I remember going through his posts from a day or so before and they were completely normal stuff, he had even answered in a thread questioning how you would like to die, precisely how he did die.

also from my own experience when you have the plan in place you can just focus on being normal, it's not a thing that you think about constantly anymore