It just kinda happened that nobody at the store where I work knows I am trans except the two head managers of the store who see my legal name (deadname) when they pay me (shit wages btw XD). Well today it was me and 3 other women (all of whom are white btw) with the closing shift. The topic of gass prices comes up and with that Joe Biden and politics as a whole, all three of them are like "yeah, fuck Brandon!!!!111" and other conservative stuff and I was just standing there looking at the floor in silence, wich isn't abnormal for me because I am always really shy and reserved at work. They also always say whacko gender essentialist stuff about how "guy is when ____" "girl is when _____" you know how Americans are... Anyways even though I am almost certain I won't be clocked I am still kinda scared about the whole thing... Like all somebody has to do is look over at my screen while I'm clocking in or out and see my deadname plastered on the screen and boom.... Idk... Just wanted to vent is all... Not much I can do about it but just hope nothing bad happens.
Also it just kinda feels bad that my coworkers who put in all the work to keep the store running and get paid pennies are all bootlicking conservatives... Like how demoralizing is that... I can't even feel a solidarity with my immediate coworkers when it should be so natural to feel that... Ah... The absolute state of American labor....
If the cis haven't caught on to you yet, then I'd call that winning at the binary trans olympics.
Yeah it's the voice that's gets em. I've had a few times where a customer was looking kinda strange around me untill I hit em with the ole voice and they seemed to relax. It's funny how simple it is to trick the cis into thinking you are one of them, thier brains are like "no Booba???? But... Girlllll???" "But ahhh voice has resonance and pitch within Booba range, this is grill for sure! unga bunga."
I have the opposite problem. I get ma'amd until I open my mouth. Even when I try really hard it's like they're hypersensitive to that moment when my voice cracks. I even do voice training. :cowboy-cri: