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  • Ms. ArmoredThirteen@lemmy.ml
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    4 months ago

    I was at about 4-6 beers a day with double or triple that on weekends, managed to be coming up on 2 years without alcohol now. A few things helped me. I set up a spreadsheet to track consumption so I could actually see the scale of what I was doing and look at my chart to try and get my rolling averages down. I got to about an alcohol a day but couldn't get past that just by weening.

    I started taking low doses of mushrooms once a week (more than micro dosing, less than hallucinating) which helped me process a lot of the underlying stuff I was trying to ro hide by drinking. Hot swapped most my social so I didn't feel like my alcoholism was the norm anymore. So much therapy. Therapy every week, sometimes twice if I had really rough patches.

    The event that finally got me past the week mark was I got COVID. I felt too miserable to drink and by the time I felt like I wouldn't die on the spot if I had a beer it had been two weeks and my cravings had really eased up.

    So a combination of years working through the underlying reasons I was drinking, weening as much as I could, and finally having a break long enough to bump me past the worst parts of withdrawal. If I had gotten COVID before I worked on all the underlying stuff it wouldn't have mattered I would have just gone back to covering everything up.

    I don't have great advice for sleep. I also have bad insomnia. I can often get away with a very high CBD low THC edible and some tea with valerian root. I'm working on fixing some different underlying issues causing my brain to race really badly when I try to sleep.