Did it accomplish anything? No. Was it a dumb thing to do? Yes. Does it eat at me more and more every day that I'm just sitting by while the bombs keep dropping and people keep dying? Yeppers.
Don't really have anything else to say, just angry at everything including myself.
We're all people at the end of the day. Learn from the experience but don't beat yourself up for having a very rational human response to naked cruelty and barbarism.
Thanks. I'm freaking out a little about the possibility that in this era of GoPros that this comes back to bite me, but I guess at least I'll be able to say I had a principle.