Things are becoming more depressing every day and I can't afford for professionals and don't want to jump to the last resort or drugs. Is there a medicine that can make me happy if I take it in proper doses and does not require a doctor's prescription?
All the people saying exercise... I swear that has to vary across people. I went to the gym thrice a week for two years and hated every gd second of it.
It really does seem to very considerably. I know a guy that's addicted to running and will just do it all weekend, because he starts and doesn't want to stop. I've never gotten a buzz from physical activity of any kind.
I was going to the gym before getting laid off. Gym helped me with my mental health.
I swear that has to vary across people.
I am sorry it didn't work out for you.
Why not walk outside instead of going to a sweaty gym and being bored and miserable?
going to a sweaty gym and being bored and miserable?
Going to the gym isn't exactly like this. It helped me a lot with my mental health but I am in a position now where I can't resume it, so that's why I am considering the medicines temporarily.
Please reread this chain, I'm replying to someone who literally said they hated every second of it, if you hate the gym you don't have to go and there are plenty of other things to do.
Exercise boosts endorphins.
Physical contact boosts oxytocin.
Sex does both.
Chocolate helps produce serotonin.
Capsaicin-heavy foods will make your body produce adrenaline and endorphins.
Caffeine is a drug but can give you a long hit of dopamine — but overdosing will make anxiety worse, and can fuck with your sleep cycle. It's also rapidly addictive and the withdrawal symptoms include malaise and depressive feelings.
A stable sleep cycle is A#1 for happiness, though. It won't make you happy on its own but screwing it up will make you unhappy on its own, so it's the foundation to build everything else on.
Sex does both.
I wish I had someone for that.
It won't make you happy on its own but screwing it up will make you unhappy on its own, so it's the foundation to build everything else on.
My sleep cycle is currently from 4 am to 11 am. Think I should sleep earlier? I do coding at night and surf social media during the day.
Nah as long as it's always 4am to 11am you'll be fine. Consistency is the main thing.
What the above commenter said is generally good advice, but I would add on limiting your social media intake. Finding an online community to interact with (with voice or video chat kinds of things involved) is a better use of online time. For the coding, you could try moving that to the morning, and socialize in the afternoon/evening, and that will help you get on a more normalized schedule. If your leisure time is spent mostly with other people, it's a lot easier to sign off and go to bed when everyone else does as well.
Edit: Also throw in a multivitamin and 2000-5000IU of Vitamin D3 because nutritional deficiencies can cause psych problems as well as exacerbate or prolong said psych problems.
Try to reduce social media. I did and feel much better without the constant input from others.
The line between medicine and drug is largely arbitrary.
Start with the basics of diet, exercise, water, sleep, social interaction. They're consistent and have very low harm potential. It's also shocking how much each of them contributed to a sense of well being, or how much a lack of any one of them can cause a downward spiral.
Supplements and vitamins also aren't super risky, although they aren't well regulated and many do nothing in their pill form. One or some of the vitamin Bs seem important for me personally, although I'm not 100% certain and I don't know which one(s) and to what degree. But I'll drink a monster energy regularly because they have 200-400% dv. Omegas from fish oils may also be good. L-tyrosine and things like it are commonly discussed in nootropics boards, I can't vouch for them personally.
As far as medications, it's unlikely you'll find an easy and risk-free solution, unfortunately. Even well-studied prescription medications aren't guaranteed to work for your specific needs and have potential to make things worse, which is why in an ideal world everyone would have access to a medical professional that can oversee their use. And often the ones that work aren't immediately obvious, but demonstrate marginal improvement over the longer term. In fact euphoria and hypomania (which in the moment feel like "oh my god this drug is working") may be signs the drug isn't a good fit. Very difficult to gauge on your own.
Online prescription mills are fairly painless if you have a good idea that a specific medication might work for you. I used them to get on a specific antidepressant after doing my own research.
Kanna and St John's wort both have SSRI compounds I believe. Be careful, just because something's a legal plant doesn't mean it can't interact negatively or have harmful effects. But these are probably the closest to what you're asking.
Kratom is legal and can boost mood but has high addictive potential. In my experience not worth it except to get off more addictive substances.
Dex/dxm/dextromethorphan is an active ingredient in some cough suppressants that has antidepressive potential. Can be purchased with no additives at some pharmacies and online. Tripping on this isn't fun at all in my opinion, I'd rather do salvia, but small doses seem to have some mood improving effects that last a few days
Stay away from diphenhydramine (I mention it because it's often spoken of in the same context as Dex). Its use has been linked to dementia.
Psychedelics can help deconstruct old assumptions and mental structures that may be contributing to your depression. I'd describe the experience as rediscovering the magic of existence. Many of them also have antidepressant qualities-- a sort of afterglow that may last a week or a month. Microdosing is said to tap into the afterglow without tripping. LSD and shrooms are fairly well-studied. Mescaline acts similarly and may be easier to find. Morning glory seeds are legal and contain LSA which is similar to LSD. Salvia acts differently than any of these, often leading to bad trips, but is generally legal. None of these are addictive, but may be risky for people with certain mental illnesses.
There are a variety of legal and grey market stims that can improve mood, but they may have harmful effects and addictive potential. You'll find a bunch of them if you browse nootropics boards, but keep in mind anonymous comments are not scientific and may undersell risk and negative effects. Nootropics boards will also discuss other supposedly cognitive enhancing substances. Lions mane is a common one. Some are natural supplements or things your body already produces (though this doesn't guarantee they're safe or pure). Many are addictive, many are probably snake oil. Search a drug/supplement on pubmed before trying it.
Adjacent to nootropics and more dangerous is research chemicals. Half of them are attempts to make "legal" but identical/similar analogues to illegal drugs. Some are novel. Almost none of them have been studied and purity is never guaranteed. I Honestly don't recommend unless you're at a point where it doesn't matter. At one point for me it was "find a happy chemical or commit suicide" and I think that's the only level this kind of experimentation is truly justified. But well-studied psychedelics are preferable.
Medicine is drugs.
Try 5-HTP as a supplement if you believe you have low serotonin levels for some reason. It's a precursor to Serotonin so if there is a chemical reason your body is producing insufficient amounts then it can help, alongside L-Tyrosine which is the same thing but for dopamine. CBD supplements, if actually legitimately containing CBD can have some anxiolytic properties.
Otherwise everything else is illegal.
Sorry honey, but under capitalism you're supposed to buy worthless shit to stave off the alienation and misery and uhh like drugs are bad m'kay. Go get into K-Pop or "Gadgets" instead, heard there's some hot spicy influencer drama in these! Lotta ads to watch! And remember: Don't think, just buy product and get excited for the next product.
You might consider an MDMA, DMT or LSD trip to figure out why you're unhappy.
Do not buy drugs on the street, they are shit quality for shitty prices, you will get ripped off. Don't buy from DNMs overseas, customs do not fuck around. In UK/West EU order to home as normal, in US order to non-home mailboxes, in East EU order to dead drops. Make sure to research how to stay safe, what markets to use, how to get Monero and how to use PGP and maybe Tails depending on OpSec risk appetite, I think Dread (ddg it with tor!) has a few guides for this.
EDIT: Make sure to set Tor to safest to disable JavaScript, you won't need it and it only creates threats.
Go for lower dosages and make sure to get powder for MDMA, it should be light brown in colour. Test it! MDMA is part stim, part empathogen.
For DMT: get a proper high end vape tank DMT vape with a 510 off a respected seller on a DNM and buy a proper mod - don't buy the crappy eGO style tanks/"carts". DMT is a pure psych, very shroom-esque but without the shroom common side effects like diarrhea and uncontrollable vomiting and lasts only 15 mins.
For LSD make sure to take some time off work or do it when you won't be disturbed in general, preferably for at least 48 hours, as a trip can last 12-16. I'd go for 100ug - tabs are often under dosed so go if brave go for 120ug, don't buy tabs with overly elaborate art as that can be a sign that more effort went into the marketing than anything else, but make sure to get a test kit to make sure it's not NBOME, that drug is nice as well but it's not LSD and vendors don't dose it properly which can kill you.
Other than psychs: Amphetamine and/or nicotine will make you happy generally, but unless you have ADHD the effect may be too negligible to be worth it.
If your source of unhappiness is anxiety then you can take an anxiolytic like a benzodiazepine. Do not do that.
There's also Alcohol and Opioids but these barely do anything honestly when it comes to actual happiness. I would not do THC in an unhappy state, it's like 75% anxiety and hunger.
Or you can try therapy, but that shit never worked for me, turns out the world is just shit and my life was shit as a result, taking drugs helped/helps me cope with that and I try to improve my material circumstances as much as possible, I've never really had mental health issues though I just had shit mental health due to my material conditions so YMMV and GL, the first step to fixing an issue is identifying there is an issue. Try to identify what the issue is next.
You might consider an MDMA, DMT or LSD trip to figure out why you're unhappy.
No, I don't want to get into drugs. I know things are hard for me but it will only make things work. Some comments here told me the same, recommending mushrooms, and other recreational drugs but I know it will only make things worse.
One day other people having the same problems as me will find this thread and I don't want them to take the wrong way.
Try 5-HTP as a supplement if you believe you have low serotonin levels for some reason.
I will find out what this is. Thanks for your comment.
I don't know about that kind of medicine, but resolve your repressed anger and depression will disappear.
Sorry for seeing the comments now, but it's never too late hopefully.
Therapy helped me. Looking back first important step was noticing that I am angry. It is strange how hidden and unrecognizable anger can be.
Second part is discovering why I was angry. As soon as we discover why are we angry, we stop being angry. When ai asked my shrink how does that work, he said "I don't know, but it works". And it really does.
Now when someone says "I am angery and I know why I am angre" I am sure they have no idea.
And I haven't found other way to resolve that, than psychoanalysis as therapy.
I don't feel angry, all I could feel is hopelessness about the future. I have no plans, no job and my girlfriend is going to break up with me but I don't know when exactly she will and I don't even have a clue what is the reason. I don't hate anybody, on the other side I just don't feel loving anyone, especially me. I wish I could have wings and fly across somewhere. That should clear my mind.
this might sound like a joke but this is pretty true. my anger issues were also the peak of me being known as a basket case by everyone I knew, i was so openly depressed back then. but once everything resolved, I felt a lot better and to this day even though I can be stoic at times I've not quite felt depressed like I used to severely be. yes I can be sad sometimes but it's nothing like the disdain I felt for years.
There's probably no non-spooky chemical that will make a significant dent. People are recommending, like, chocolate, but I'm certain the main effect is eating your feelings, with substances causing a rounding error.
However, I can predict pretty well what therapist homework would be, or at least what it always was for me. Basically just clean living stuff, and not giving in to the urge to avoid doing things. There's CBT too, and resources to do it on your own, although it can get confusing without a helping hand. So, yeah, I suggest self-administering therapy. IANAT.
If it were well, I would not have asked this question. I am trying my best to suppress my suicidal thoughts but it's becoming harder every day.
