Phew, trying to collect my thoughts here. I just got back from an AA meeting tonight. My house is a disaster and Mr. Softie, the cat, is staying with my dad atm, he's safe and healthy. I decided to not go to the sober house. Rent was insane for my area and the only house with a bed was run like a cult, seriously, it was super weird and like nothing I had ever seen from AA before.

Real quick, the place I stayed 3 months at was a dump and really shitty. The clinical director was a terf and a master at gaslighting people. He'd literally call you a piece of shit and a moron if you disagreed with him. It was all around bad. I would have left if it wasn't for the counseling I was getting from my therapist. She was fantastic, very empathetic and kind. Her and I did very intensive grief and trauma counseling over mom and my childhood. I feel like I came out ahead.

The plan for the immediate future is to go back to work and save up. I have a big choice I need to make. Either I move out and rent a place, or I sink money into my home and inherit from my dad. Big choices for sure.

If anyone sees @AncomCosmonaut please let him know that I'm sorry for being such a shit head and I'd like to talk.

I'll be around to answer questions, it's good to be back my fellow liberals!

  • SorosFootSoldier [he/him, they/them]
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    2 years ago

    Hi Kanna! Yeah I'm doing way better. The grief I had over mom has waned a lot, again, I thank the great work from my counselor. How are you? I hope Ancom is doing okay. I had to break off talking to him for a bit and I feel really torn up over it. I'm doing meetings right now and I'm looking to get a new sponsor. But I'm torn, on the one hand AA is seriously like a cult, dead ass, but on the other the fellowship is fantastic and I've made a bunch of friends from it in my area.

    • Nakoichi [they/them]M
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      2 years ago

      My sister got a lot out of it. But yes it is very culty, they definitely try to manipulate people into the religious aspects when they are vulnerable. She did make some good friends out of it too so I'm glad you're able to make the most of it and good to see you doing better.

      • SorosFootSoldier [he/him, they/them]
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        2 years ago

        Thanks, that's what I was thinking. Taking what I find that sticks and leaving the rest of it. I'll keep my eyes peeled for a sponsor and keep making meetings. Thankfully the meeting I like is right up the road, and we visited it in rehab so I built up a friendship with the people over these last 3 months.

    • Kanna [she/her]
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      2 years ago

      I've heard very mixed things about it, so wanting to distance yourself from it makes sense. Hopefully you can find support that isn't a creepy cult, but I know sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do

      That's good that your counselor helped so much

      When do you get to see Mr Softie again?

      • SorosFootSoldier [he/him, they/them]
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        2 years ago

        Yeah I don't know what to think about AA, but in the meantime I'm going to continue making meetings and talking to people IRL. I'm going to get Mr. Softie back up here tomorrow. I visited him tonight and he's doing well.