Phew, trying to collect my thoughts here. I just got back from an AA meeting tonight. My house is a disaster and Mr. Softie, the cat, is staying with my dad atm, he's safe and healthy. I decided to not go to the sober house. Rent was insane for my area and the only house with a bed was run like a cult, seriously, it was super weird and like nothing I had ever seen from AA before.
Real quick, the place I stayed 3 months at was a dump and really shitty. The clinical director was a terf and a master at gaslighting people. He'd literally call you a piece of shit and a moron if you disagreed with him. It was all around bad. I would have left if it wasn't for the counseling I was getting from my therapist. She was fantastic, very empathetic and kind. Her and I did very intensive grief and trauma counseling over mom and my childhood. I feel like I came out ahead.
The plan for the immediate future is to go back to work and save up. I have a big choice I need to make. Either I move out and rent a place, or I sink money into my home and inherit from my dad. Big choices for sure.
If anyone sees @AncomCosmonaut please let him know that I'm sorry for being such a shit head and I'd like to talk.
I'll be around to answer questions, it's good to be back my fellow liberals!
Glad to see you back and hear that you're doing better :) :heart-sickle:
I have nothing to ask, but it'll be nice to see you around here again. Last time AncomCosmonaut mentioned you, it sounded like he missed you so it sounds like he might be open to that
Hi Kanna! Yeah I'm doing way better. The grief I had over mom has waned a lot, again, I thank the great work from my counselor. How are you? I hope Ancom is doing okay. I had to break off talking to him for a bit and I feel really torn up over it. I'm doing meetings right now and I'm looking to get a new sponsor. But I'm torn, on the one hand AA is seriously like a cult, dead ass, but on the other the fellowship is fantastic and I've made a bunch of friends from it in my area.
My sister got a lot out of it. But yes it is very culty, they definitely try to manipulate people into the religious aspects when they are vulnerable. She did make some good friends out of it too so I'm glad you're able to make the most of it and good to see you doing better.
Thanks, that's what I was thinking. Taking what I find that sticks and leaving the rest of it. I'll keep my eyes peeled for a sponsor and keep making meetings. Thankfully the meeting I like is right up the road, and we visited it in rehab so I built up a friendship with the people over these last 3 months.
Yeah so far I haven't talked politics with these people and I really don't want to. I'm thinking about just making friends even if they're mild liberals which isn't all that bad. I'll draw the line at frothing fash though. But I suppose I got a leg up right now as I'm back home, know the area, have a car, and some financial support for the time being.
Thanks! I'm looking at all of this as a victory for me.
I've heard very mixed things about it, so wanting to distance yourself from it makes sense. Hopefully you can find support that isn't a creepy cult, but I know sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do
That's good that your counselor helped so much
When do you get to see Mr Softie again?
Yeah I don't know what to think about AA, but in the meantime I'm going to continue making meetings and talking to people IRL. I'm going to get Mr. Softie back up here tomorrow. I visited him tonight and he's doing well.
Holy shit first dabs and then you, the gang’s getting back together :lenin-pogger:
@aaaaaaadjsf @WhoaSlowDownMaurice show yourself you libs.
Oh shoot, good to see you're back man! Glad you came out ahead with your counselor's help :rat-salute-2:
Hey Maurice! Yeah my counselor was an angel and really helped me.
Hell yeah, good to hear it. Glad your cat's alright, too
Mr. Softie lost some weight which is good, because he was getting overweight but otherwise he's good, just a bit skiddish of me.
Aw, poor guy, but he'll get used to you again
Yeah, once I get the house situated I'll ease him back up here.
Sorry to hear about the rehab house being such a dump, unfortunately I've heard that some AA stuff can be like that with regards to cultiness.
Glad to hear that you've had progress with a good therapist, that's great news! Hopefully it can help.
I'm also sober now, first it was a forced one because of potential interactions with the pain meds, but I'm trying to stick with it now that I'm off the meds.
I think before you make any big choices, getting a job could be helpful to give you more room to manoeuvre, as much as working sucks ass.
Also sorry if I ever was an asshole in any of our conversations on here.
But most of all I'm just glad to hear from you!
Hey man!! I'm glad you're sober too! Yeah AA is in a weird grey zone wherein it's not a cult, but it's kind of run like one at the same time. The place I was at was really run backwards and it showed, but I did make the most out of it.
I'm glad you made the most of it at least. That's great progress!
Indeed I did. I attended every AA meeting and made lots of contacts. Like I said, I made the most out of my therapist and her and I did some major work.
Posts like this are some powerful love. They show this place matters to a lot of people.
I'm glad you're doing ok Soros. I empathise with that decision you have to make.
welcome back to Liberal Mountain, Idaho. we missed you
Death to America
Lol two hb legends come back the same day :kitsupogi:
Hey comrade glad to hear from you! And glad to hear you’re doing ok!
i was wondering where you were at. you were always such a reliable first commentor on my posts and i thought u hated me now (jk 😘)
hope you recovery goes well and heres to a better future :solidarity:
