Phew, trying to collect my thoughts here. I just got back from an AA meeting tonight. My house is a disaster and Mr. Softie, the cat, is staying with my dad atm, he's safe and healthy. I decided to not go to the sober house. Rent was insane for my area and the only house with a bed was run like a cult, seriously, it was super weird and like nothing I had ever seen from AA before.
Real quick, the place I stayed 3 months at was a dump and really shitty. The clinical director was a terf and a master at gaslighting people. He'd literally call you a piece of shit and a moron if you disagreed with him. It was all around bad. I would have left if it wasn't for the counseling I was getting from my therapist. She was fantastic, very empathetic and kind. Her and I did very intensive grief and trauma counseling over mom and my childhood. I feel like I came out ahead.
The plan for the immediate future is to go back to work and save up. I have a big choice I need to make. Either I move out and rent a place, or I sink money into my home and inherit from my dad. Big choices for sure.
If anyone sees @AncomCosmonaut please let him know that I'm sorry for being such a shit head and I'd like to talk.
I'll be around to answer questions, it's good to be back my fellow liberals!
Sorry to hear about the rehab house being such a dump, unfortunately I've heard that some AA stuff can be like that with regards to cultiness.
Glad to hear that you've had progress with a good therapist, that's great news! Hopefully it can help.
I'm also sober now, first it was a forced one because of potential interactions with the pain meds, but I'm trying to stick with it now that I'm off the meds.
I think before you make any big choices, getting a job could be helpful to give you more room to manoeuvre, as much as working sucks ass.
Also sorry if I ever was an asshole in any of our conversations on here.
But most of all I'm just glad to hear from you!
Hey man!! I'm glad you're sober too! Yeah AA is in a weird grey zone wherein it's not a cult, but it's kind of run like one at the same time. The place I was at was really run backwards and it showed, but I did make the most out of it.
I'm glad you made the most of it at least. That's great progress!
Indeed I did. I attended every AA meeting and made lots of contacts. Like I said, I made the most out of my therapist and her and I did some major work.