Maybe you could tell. Maybe you couldn't. But I've been drunk since the 29th. I need to do better and I'm sorry. This is the only place I trust to confess. I need to get better. I need to be better. People rely on me and I'm letting them down.
I'm letting everyone down. Myself included. I hope I didn't say anything fucked up. Gosh I am so frustrated with myself. I want to be better but then the bottle calls my name. It says "hey tomorrow is tomorrow so let's get drunk today."
Lies lies all the pretty lies.
Have you tried Kratom? It doesn't work for everyone but does wonders for killing my urge to drink.
Also look into Bromantane, an old Soviet stimulant that reduces alcohol cravings and helps protect the liver