It’s ok to “want” anything you like. Nothing in the world changes just because you “wanted” someone dead or not, or gloated when they died of natural causes.

Liberalism is the self-obsessed quest for personal virtue and moralism, purge the part of your brain that constantly frets about what you need to think or say to be “good” as an individual. It’s Christianity and liberalism deep in your brain. The only political stances that matter are ones that you organize and act on collectively