no amount of therapy or even material change will make me ok with the fact that my consciousness, and those of everyone i have ever cared about or could possible care about, will probably be permanently halted someday. nothing i do, or that i could hypothetically do, matters in that context, me and everyone i could fight for may as well not exist in the long term. sure we could maybe build FALGSC, but why? it would be like a mold spreading from its petri dish, just more meat to spoil at the heat death. meaninglessness and my incapacity to create meaning seem to be intractable problems of reality.