Imagine, if you will, a curse which makes you only able to recall the last three topics you have thought about. Also imagine that you live in a situation where nobody else you meet in person really gives a shit about leftist ideals the same way you do, and have a daily routine which is mostly staring at the television. Imagine trying to accomplish any self-improvement or even self-care while having no long-term memory beyond writing little sticky notes for yourself.
I'm not sure what to do here, since anything I can do to get in a better situation requires planning, and I cannot focus well enough to plan. Am I doomed to be a meat puppet controlled by fucking sloth demons or something?
Like... being in a living situation with a career where I can actually make choices for myself? Performing self-care instead of being glued to a screen? Not basing most of my behavior around finding ways to stop my mimd from wandering into existential dread?