If you don't feel like you belong anywhere, then you should orient yourself over who's least likely to betray, backstab, throw you under the bus, or otherwise harm you. And if both groups are equally likely to harm you, the question then becomes which group has the greater capacity to harm you.
Then I don't understand the point of your post unless you're just venting. If you're already organizing in a party with people you trust, then you have it good honestly. Most people here would kill to be with trustworthy and reliable people.
If you don't feel like you belong anywhere, then you should orient yourself over who's least likely to betray, backstab, throw you under the bus, or otherwise harm you. And if both groups are equally likely to harm you, the question then becomes which group has the greater capacity to harm you.
If you read my other comments I already actively organize in a party
Then I don't understand the point of your post unless you're just venting. If you're already organizing in a party with people you trust, then you have it good honestly. Most people here would kill to be with trustworthy and reliable people.