I used to subscribe to the anarchist line but the more i thought about how states were criticised there wasnt a whole lot of substance there compared to the utility a functional state brings to the implementation of communism . Couple that with how often self proclaimed leftists who are either just calling themselves leftists or anarchists habitually and non-productively jeer at socialism that has actually existed and/or still exists and i am now fully with the ML tendency from delving down the theory rabbit hole. Not to say any of it actually matters until well into things getting hot in a revolution-shaped fashion, but it's painful seeing good hearted people not being principled about their ideology