Old post, I know, but I just saw it again. I'm definitely not fully asexual, but demi enough that I just... can't relate to finding anyone (or anything) sexually attractive unless I'm like, close friends with them. But post is extra relatable for me, since I did go as Bowsette for halloween a few years ago, and I totally share the opinion of 'I just think she's neat', without actually like, finding her attractive. I dunno, its weird.

But yeah, definitely alienating growing up, and everyone talking about their celebrity crushes (especially hearing about it from stereotypically cis-het boys being their stereotypically horny selves), and just being like "?", "?????????", and like, learning to talk about about how 'fuckable' people are to fit in, and just, not really 'getting' what it feels like everyone else is talking about? As much as Tumblr sucks in a lot of ways, I wish it was around instead of 4chan when I was a middleschooler/highschooler.

Like, I still find it deeply weird and unrelatable that apparently it's regarded as 'normal' for a lot of people to masturbate to the thoughts of their friends, and how literally horny people are over characters (especially anime characters). Not that I'm any judge of what is or isn't normal, but its just kind of, alien to me, to think about being turned on by that, but also I've literally said horny shit to fit in, and to like, expression 'appreciation' for characters I think are neat.