Feels like potential employers simply ignore my portfolio, and it doesn't matter how skilled and/or knowledgeable I am. None of them even try testing my skills, even when I am obviously more than qualified for a relevant job vacancy, or on the occasion when I do get an in-person interview, which is not helped by my social impediments.
I have always been significantly better than my immediate peers in the field where I am looking for a job currently, but while some of them did manage to get jobs, I am left with no commercial experience, and potential employers are obviously looking primarily for people who already have experience.
I don't seem to be able to hold a job in any other field, currently, at least not in the long term.
I love living under crapitalism and not being neurotypical enough to have a living. /s
(P.S. I do apologise to people whose replies I have not attended yet, regarding idealism and whether or not Marxism is anti-idealist or not. I still intend to.)
A significant issue with this is that other people's well-being is dependent on me having a job. It's not just about me.
I can't spare any money if that isn't free, and the issue is not just the fact that I lack interview skills, I am generally socially impeded, especially in in-person situations, and I do not think I will ever be able to apply the skills, unless and until my status will be backed by history of employment.
I am already not looking for anything specific, apart from being the sort of stuff that I can do, and have dedicated more than a year now to specifically broadening my area of expertise and re-building my portfolio.
Kind of getting hopeless in this regard, especially with the bad things that happened to me recently, and which are very likely going to happen to me very soon.