I interviewed Kirsten Carlson, a PA Student at Francis Marion University, who is one of the few people that do not have an internal monologue. She does not h...
I can't understand monologuing all the time because like... I have lots of thoughts all happening at the same time? I have that process running in the back of my brain about that theory I read yesterday that I'm pretty sure is gonna come to some sort of revelation in a day or two that interrupts whatever I'm doing. Then I have whatever I'm currently doing, what I'm planning to do, what I feel like eating/drinking soon, and a number of others going on about various things including that thing that upset me this morning.
I can't possibly monologue this all at once. It is all running in tandem, like multithreading. Multiple tracks is an interesting way to put it but they're not really tracks, it's more like a sorting algorithm with many things happening in many places all at once. It's not linear for me at all.
I can drop in and out of monologue, but it's not always there, and it's much faster for it to not be there so I can process many different things at any one time.
Yes, this was quite annoying, and I just realised I don't have the following experience anymore: I used to be thinking about something, already have finished the thought, but I'd have to think it all the way through verbally before I could move on.
Any who, don't have this anymore. I got way better single-threaded performance I never need to verbalise thoughts (verbalise in my head, I mean) anymore. My entire way of thinking has been rewritten after meds and various kinds of therapy. I only have 2 tracks now, and there's one train that goes on schedule. And I can make another train come and go whenever I wish. It's peaceful, compared to before.
Hmmm mine is never really peaceful lmao I can only switch off with meditative content or hypnosis trance stuff that I definitely don't do often enough given how relaxing it is.
I can't understand monologuing all the time because like... I have lots of thoughts all happening at the same time? I have that process running in the back of my brain about that theory I read yesterday that I'm pretty sure is gonna come to some sort of revelation in a day or two that interrupts whatever I'm doing. Then I have whatever I'm currently doing, what I'm planning to do, what I feel like eating/drinking soon, and a number of others going on about various things including that thing that upset me this morning.
I can't possibly monologue this all at once. It is all running in tandem, like multithreading. Multiple tracks is an interesting way to put it but they're not really tracks, it's more like a sorting algorithm with many things happening in many places all at once. It's not linear for me at all.
I can drop in and out of monologue, but it's not always there, and it's much faster for it to not be there so I can process many different things at any one time.
Yes, this was quite annoying, and I just realised I don't have the following experience anymore: I used to be thinking about something, already have finished the thought, but I'd have to think it all the way through verbally before I could move on.
Any who, don't have this anymore.
I got way better single-threaded performanceI never need to verbalise thoughts (verbalise in my head, I mean) anymore. My entire way of thinking has been rewritten after meds and various kinds of therapy. I only have 2 tracks now, and there's one train that goes on schedule. And I can make another train come and go whenever I wish. It's peaceful, compared to before.Hmmm mine is never really peaceful lmao I can only switch off with meditative content or hypnosis trance stuff that I definitely don't do often enough given how relaxing it is.
Can I have the schedule? I like train schedules.