Looking at the recent discourse has made me really upset.

Covid is still a massive problem that is killing people, and almost no one is taking it seriously

It so so hard to do anything when you're worried about dying, and not in an anxiety disorder way. edit: stop speculating about what medical conditions I have, thank you kindly

I've accepted that there is basically nothing I can justify doing during bad weather that involves people outside my 3 person bubble (it used to be larger, but folks have decided to be less cautious without communicating about it) both in a moral obligation and a personal safety sense, and that's despair inducing because the way things are going this is a "live with it the rest of your life" sort of thing

I want to go out, I really do. I miss hanging with friends. I miss going to concerts and parties and drag and commie shit. But I can't, and not in a "something is wrong with me" sort of way. I've tried to find new social circles who take the pandemic seriously. It's been an exercise in having my boundaries pushed and my (these next two words are the one part of this post I encourage you to make fun of) evidence based perspective on the pandemic pathologized.

And I know this will be alleviated when the weather outside is suitable for outdoor masked stuff, but god, I haven't been able to see people besides my partners since the holidays, and there is still months and months left until I can hang out with friends again.

I'm so fucking tired. I can't keep going on like this without my mental health deteriorating and I can't stop acting like this without being reckless with my body and abdicating my responsibility to others

  • MeatfuckerDidNothing [they/them]
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    2 years ago

    you just talked about how you're going to concerts and eating in restaurants

    edit: you take some basic covid measures, but the keyword there is some. Credit where credit is due, but not very much credit.

      • Kuori [she/her]
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        2 years ago

        "why should i have to give up my treats? nobody else will!"

        huge socialist hours

          • Kuori [she/her]
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            2 years ago

            y'know, i don't mean to be dismissive but i just realized i have less than no interest in rehashing this conversation virtually when i have to have it every fucking day in real life

            i think you're acting in contradiction to your alleged socialist principles by prioritizing your personal happiness over the health and safety of the people around you but like, hey, fuck 'em. they were already doomed, right?