I'm super squeamish about asking for help from people I know in real life. I'd be way more comfortable working with a comrade of basically any stripe. I don't care if you know more or less than me - teaching is beneficial, being taught is beneficial.
Done enough front end to know I hate it, but I'll share what I know.
Where I'm at experience wise:
-Scratching the surface of back end (configured my own LAMP environment and have a local website with some basic PHP/JS/MySQL functions
-I've done 2/3 of the first ODIN Project (HTML/CSS)
-Completed some front-end online free "bootcamp" that was a pre-req for a paid java bootcamp I didn't pursue
-Getting somewhat savvy with git/github, IDEs, and very comfortable with operational logic and scoping from modding games
-Lots of IT experience, so I never really have configuration/interfacing issues
-finished the w3schools "webdev" track (JS/HTML/CSS/PHP/SQL) along with a few other
Where I'm at mentally:
-Haven't touched my PHP project in months
-Feel like I forgot everything I learned
-Feel like a fraud and like I probably have undiagnosed ADHD
-Constantly tempted to give up and dive into something even less likely to turn my life around
-Alienated from my friends who don't really understand why I'm struggling to get economic traction
The reason I'm interested in paired learning is because I believe in other people more than in myself - I struggle to invest in myself, working as a team on things always gives me limitless energy. If I work alone I typically will finish a step of the project I'm working on and then retreat away from the project rather than pushing it further continuously. Kinda just need a person that goes "okay next we need to..." and when they don't say that I say it, rinse repeat. That doesn't mean we constantly work, I know time is precious; it just means there is no official "hiatus".
I know you're looking for someone to collaborate with, but just an FYI that if ^ this was an employment posting it would break age and disability discrimination laws. There's no reason that what you're looking for is someone over/under a certain age or with/without certain conditions. We've all legitimately criticized dating profiles that say "looking for white blonde female with no prior sexual partners, and age 18-23, etc. etc." so might wanna just keep that in mind next time comrade.
yeah I kind of already had second-thoughts during reflection on this.
I'll edit to the extent I can but the only reason I brought age/ADHD into it was to
doxx myselfsignal to anyone interested my own insecurities regarding life. I guess I assume most people will have better opportunities for study than this, but you're right - better to be inclusive of everyone than to needlessly protect my own frail ego.