That's it, that's the post. I'm feeling good about myself. Also it's kind wild how working out always makes me feel better but I still have to force myself to do it.

Like it's either: feel like shit -> Don't work out -> continue to feel like shit

Or

Feel like shit -> absolutely force myself to get up and go work out -> don't feel like shit anymore

Yet it's always an enormous mental effort to work up the will to go work out

  • shimmer [undecided]
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    2 years ago

    I've been consistently doing workouts at home this last couple of months. I'm starting to lose some weight. I'm still depressed though.

    • Graphite22 [he/him, comrade/them]
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      2 years ago

      I get what you mean. I still struggle with depression even after my own weight loss journey.

      I've always been a big boy. From like 16-26 years old I was like 250 at my lightest and 330 at my worst. I can barely remember the times when I wasn't big.

      I am in better shape than I ever was when I was a kid and it still fucks with me. I still get depressed or anxious. It feels like A LOT of leftovers from just about anything from when I was big. It sucks so bad because it fucks with your confidence. Waning confidence just makes things worse and worse.

      I still have loose skin and weird looking dude titties. I still lose all confidence in myself sometimes or my own perception of my body gets warped to hell and back. It sucks but thats life.

      All of that gets erased though when someone randomly compliments my legs or ass. I worked hard on that shit and despite the fact that I can't take compliments well at all, I love it. Don't convince yourself that it doesn't feel good because I've fallen into that trap a few times.

      Also you're awesome for even sticking to it for months. KEEP AT IT.

      :meow-hug: