That's it, that's the post. I'm feeling good about myself. Also it's kind wild how working out always makes me feel better but I still have to force myself to do it.
Like it's either: feel like shit -> Don't work out -> continue to feel like shit
Or
Feel like shit -> absolutely force myself to get up and go work out -> don't feel like shit anymore
Yet it's always an enormous mental effort to work up the will to go work out
My apartment complex has a modest workout room with some barbells, weight machines and treadmills so I've just been using that. I think if I can stay consistent enough I may get a membership at a real gym near me though