That's it, that's the post. I'm feeling good about myself. Also it's kind wild how working out always makes me feel better but I still have to force myself to do it.
Like it's either: feel like shit -> Don't work out -> continue to feel like shit
Or
Feel like shit -> absolutely force myself to get up and go work out -> don't feel like shit anymore
Yet it's always an enormous mental effort to work up the will to go work out
I'm one year in and to be honest it only got a tiny bit easier to force myself to go.
I'm still happy I made myself push through in the end but I'm never really enjoying it.