Pick a random activity that sounds sort of interesting and then decide that you are going to do it. You aren't going to feel like doing it but that's ok, sometimes your feelings are an op. They think they're protecting you but they're really just tricking you into doing the same boring shit over and over. You're strong enough to deal with whatever's out there. Uncertainty is scary as hell but novelty is worth the risk.

Idk you probably weren't looking for advice, I've just been talking to my therapist about this stuff lately so it's where my mind's at. This meme has been my life for the past couple decades and I couldn't take another day of it. I'm too spiteful to die before every last capitalist gets theirs so I'm trying to change the way I live.