Love doesn't work that way. It's someone else's decision to love you, that isn't for you to decide.
It is like I said, you are trying to justify this as if it is a computer program that needs "justification". It is a gift of kindness. You sound caught up in this idea that you are unworthy or deserve punishment for acknowledging and accepting it. For any reason you would try to dismiss someones kindness, it is irrational to reject someones unconditional love. So instead of resisting it, just reciprocate it back if you don't feel anything. It is important to others to feel loved too.
If you truly reciprocate enough and see that happiness it brings to others, you may realize why people were offering you love all along.
Something that could help you understand yourself would be to go watch a certain movie. Groundhog Day.
It's a movie where the main character played by Bill Murray, gains access to whatever he wants by being in a timeloop. He is able to enjoy all the treats and pleasures he wants and decides to neglect everything about himself. He becomes completely miserable. When he tries to pursue a woman to get her to love him, she tells him "How could you love me? You don't even love yourself."
He betrays his own sense of self respect because as far as he is concerned, he never needs to shower again, or brush his teeth, or do anything else to maintain his health or friendships. It destroys him internally despite the fact that he can never truly die. It is only when after striking out so many times with the woman he is infatuated with, he decides to do something different... he starts helping people. He suddenly finds purpose in his life and decides to take time building skills to help others. He turns his helpless attitude of him not mattering into his greatest weapon to find happiness. His helplessness he turns into selflessness.
Despite being locked inside one day... forever... he soon has the entire town falling in love with him every day and celebrating him. He finally feels love from others ,because he understands how it feels to give it to others. He finds such a sense of purpose that he becomes satisfied, even comforted by the fact that tomorrow will just reset everything all over again, because he will be happy.
If you are feeling in a place where you feel the same way, turn that feeling of worthlessness into a selfless drive to love and help others. Also you should watch it because it is a good movie.
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Love doesn't work that way. It's someone else's decision to love you, that isn't for you to decide.
It is like I said, you are trying to justify this as if it is a computer program that needs "justification". It is a gift of kindness. You sound caught up in this idea that you are unworthy or deserve punishment for acknowledging and accepting it. For any reason you would try to dismiss someones kindness, it is irrational to reject someones unconditional love. So instead of resisting it, just reciprocate it back if you don't feel anything. It is important to others to feel loved too.
If you truly reciprocate enough and see that happiness it brings to others, you may realize why people were offering you love all along.
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Something that could help you understand yourself would be to go watch a certain movie. Groundhog Day.
It's a movie where the main character played by Bill Murray, gains access to whatever he wants by being in a timeloop. He is able to enjoy all the treats and pleasures he wants and decides to neglect everything about himself. He becomes completely miserable. When he tries to pursue a woman to get her to love him, she tells him "How could you love me? You don't even love yourself."
He betrays his own sense of self respect because as far as he is concerned, he never needs to shower again, or brush his teeth, or do anything else to maintain his health or friendships. It destroys him internally despite the fact that he can never truly die. It is only when after striking out so many times with the woman he is infatuated with, he decides to do something different... he starts helping people. He suddenly finds purpose in his life and decides to take time building skills to help others. He turns his helpless attitude of him not mattering into his greatest weapon to find happiness. His helplessness he turns into selflessness.
Despite being locked inside one day... forever... he soon has the entire town falling in love with him every day and celebrating him. He finally feels love from others ,because he understands how it feels to give it to others. He finds such a sense of purpose that he becomes satisfied, even comforted by the fact that tomorrow will just reset everything all over again, because he will be happy.
If you are feeling in a place where you feel the same way, turn that feeling of worthlessness into a selfless drive to love and help others. Also you should watch it because it is a good movie.
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