Saying “quit meth” is cheating + I’m kinda trying anyways.
I’ve always had problems with food/eating since I was a kid, but it’s gotten pretty suck. I think part of what made me stop being able to see myself as femme was, in fact, becoming so thin, with my gaunt face and bony hips and what I think is some sagging skin from rapid weight loss (I’d really like to get rid of that shit too, especially on my neck).
Last couple weeks I’ve been turning things around, starting to eat more, but I have a difficult time with appetite, and this pickiness I’ve had since I was a kid. Most things I could buy ingredients for and “make at home” are unappealing. I keep going to the store to buy food and walk out with fucking candy.
I don’t use meth but adderall does the same thing where I don’t have any appetite and I also never enjoyed eating as a kid.
Currently my strategy is eating horribly unhealthy food that I find tasty since that’s probably better than starving myself.
I’m trying to make a habit of snacking healthy foods like nuts or fruit/vegetables while doing something else so I don’t have to focus too much on the eating part.